I am so STUPID!

Ever since making my new blog I have totally forgotten about this one! For that I am sooo sorry.
Plus, I've moved so many times and I just think with all the chaos I forget what I already have and start fresh.

So, don't worry because I have a new blog that allows me to do so much more; this one I talk about my personal life sometimes, but I also of course talk about Nightwish, Anette Olzon, and Tarja Turunen. Or anything that comes to my mind. So, please, check it out, since I'm currently addicted to it, and I do put tons of music updates as soon as I get them.

Now, I recently got a comment on my new blog about a reader not liking what I talk about, this person called me "pathetic", so I'm going to now re-start all my deep, thought-provoking posts. Of course, I will still talk about music, because that's a huge part of who I am, but I do agree that now that my personal life is somewhat calm, I may be able to return to my old ways;=)

But from now on I will try my best to post things on here too, just always check my new blog first in case I forget.

Hope you all understand.

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MORE VIDEOS FROM NIGHTWISH'S CONCERT!!!

More video from the last concert for the Dark Passion Play Tour, "Meadows of Heaven".



This is the VERY FIRST TIME Nightwish has ever played this song live!
Yes, Anette sang it in Suomi Safari, but that was a solo gig she did.

Here is "Romanticide"-



Also, "Wish I Had an Angel"-



Another song, "Amaranth"-



Here is "The Siren" which is personally,
my favorite old song that I love Anette singing-



And one more,"The Islander"-

ANOTHER VIDEO FROM NIGHTWISH'S LAST CONCERT!!!

Okay, so I just got back on the computer,
and found another video from Nightwish's last gig at Hartwall Arena-
this is "Walking in the Air". I actually think that for some
stupid reason, this is the first time I've ever heard it, and it's amazing!



Hopefully when I get up tomorrow(because the whole 6 hour time difference between Sweden/Finland and the U.S.)then more people will have
videos and photos, and Anette will be posting in her blog.

Speaking of Anette, this is the first time I can actually see what she's wearing- looks like a floor length(maybe silk)black gown- and I love it!

LAST NIGHTWISH CONCERT FOR DARK PASSION PLAY TOUR!!!

This is the first video from the LAST concert from
Nightwish's Dark Passion Play Tour which lasted three years.
It's at Hartwall Arena in Finland,
and this is a song from Once, "Dark Chest of Wonders".



And I would just like to say, that if the new singer of Nightwish,
Anette Olzon, has put up with all the crap fans gave her for three years now-
this PROVES she DESERVES to be in the band!!!

This is the setlist-

1.Intro (Finlandia w/ Troy Donockley)
2.7 Days to the Wolves
3.Ever Dream
4.Wishmaster
5.Romanticide
6.Amaranth
7.The Siren (ft. violinists)
8.While Your Lips Are Still Red (ft. violinists)
9.The Poet and The Pendulum
10.Nemo
11.Sahara
12.Dark Chest of Wonders
13.The Islander (w/ Troy Donockley)
14.Walking in the Air (Acoustic w/ Troy Donockley)
15.Last of The Wilds (w/ Troy Donockley
16.Meadows of Heaven (w/ Gospel Choir)
Encore:
17.Ghost Love Score
18.Wish I Had An Angel
19.The Heart Asks Pleasure First

I know Apocalyptica also performed, but I'm not sure if they were
before or after Nightwish, or what their setlist was.

Just so you know, Anette was talking about the band
having some surprises during the last gig, on her blog the other day.
Well at least I know what one of the surprises was-
the never before heard song "The Heart Asks Pleasure First "
So let's hope somebody has it recorded!!!

TaO oF RodneY...oR KaTiE {nOt A Rant}

"We seduce the dark with pain and rapture
Like two ships that pass in the night
You and I, a whore and a bashful sailor
Welcome to a sunrise of a dirty mind

All you love is a lie
You one-night butterfly
Hurt me, be the one
Whoever brings the night

The Dark, created to hide the innocent white,
the lust of night Eyes so bright,
seductive lies Crimson masquerade where I merely played my part
Poison dart of desire"
- Whoever Brings the Night by Nightwish

Actually, this was one night, I wish wouldn't end.
So last night I went to X-FEST 2K9. It was the time I've been to it,
and I thought it was awesome! I got up early kinda,
and got there around 10 or 10:15 and the gates opened at 11,
with the first band coming on at 12:05.
So we got in around 11:10, and Halestorm(my favorite band next to Nightwish)
was at the autograph booth and I had to get there!
So my step-dad left me and my friend Cassy at the booth,
with a long line kinda and we waited.
But I knew it would end at 11:25 for Sick Puppies to take a turn for autographs.



Well we moved a bit but then Halestorm left!
I was kinda aggravated, but figured I like Sick Puppies so I'll stay in line for them.
The I heard someone yell my name.
Up further in line was a kid from my school. He asked if I had been in line for Halestorm,
and I told him yes. He goes, "Well, they're standing right there still signing some stuff."
I was like, "REALLY??? Okay let's go!"
Since Cassy and I didn't want to travel back through the line, I jumped the fence.
Some guy asked me if I needed help,
but before I could say anything I had already swung one leg over
and a woman said, "No, I think she may have got it now."
Cassy gave me her stuff, jumped the fence,
and we walked over to Lzzy Hale, the singer of Halestorm,
who has an amazing voice and something I just now noticed- awesome style!



I asked her if she could sign my ticket and she nicely took it and signed it,
and I told her how I loved her hair.
"Well, I haven't washed it in awhile, so thanks!" I thought that was funny.



Then I asked her if she wouldn't mind taking a picture with me,
and she said sure and grabbed my shoulder
and turned us both to the camera(phone) Cassy had.



I got a picture with her and as she signed Cassy's ticket,
she said she liked my shoes and Cassy's jeans.
Which her jeans were awesome- hot pink and teal zebra stripped.

Then a little later the concerts started!

Halestorm-


I must I thought all the bands did really really good!

Line-up:
Halestorm
Sick Puppies
CAVO
RED
HURT
Cage the Elephant
Hollywood
Our Lady Peace
Mudvayne
Alice in Chains

Any more pictures you want to see, they're on my profiles.
Most of it is Halestorm, considering that's the band I really went there for.

One more thing, not X-Fest related,
but Nightwish related- Anette Olzon, will be making a solo album!!!
Not as a career- that's why she has Nightwish- but as a side project.
Yes, I agree that she should be able to do that!
Every other member in the band has another band or project they do besides Nightwish,
just because she's the singer does not mean she can't.
But I am not only now excited for whenever the next Nightwish album gets out,
but now also I can't wait for Anette's album! So good luck to her with that!

THe GAmE {RAnt}

"A kindest heart which always made
Me ashamed of my own.
She walks alone but not without her name.
Eva flies away,
Dreams the world far away.
In this cruel children's game
There's no friend to call her name.
Eva sails away,
Dreams the world far away.
The Good in her will be my sunflower field.
Mocked by man to depths of shame
Little girl with life ahead.
For a memory of one kind word
She would stay among the beasts.
Time for one more daring dream
Before her escape,
Edenbeam, we kill with her own loving heart"
- Eva by Nightwish

The game? The game of life? Of chance? Of what?
I think sometimes believing in faith is like a game. Is there a point in trying?
If you believe your fate is sealed? Why play a game you've already won?
Or lost, depending on how you look at it... I want to believe in free will.
God gave us free will, we aren't slaves.
But if God knows everything we're about to do before we think of doing it,
then is that the same as fate? Bear with me, I haven't read the whole Bible.
But if there's fate is there free will, or choice?

Right now I feel like I am tempting fate, and losing.

And it's something as ridiculous as dying my hair. How come everytime
I time try to dye my hair red, it NEVER works?!?
I actually went to a hair salon this time to get hair dye(which I will never do again,
not to mention how rude everyone was).
It doesn't say on the box how do anything!
I had wing it based on what I've done before.
This is like, hair colour cream, not hair colour dye, so that's a problem.

I am trying to get this colour-



This is a picture of Anette Olzon in 2008.
And I have been trying to get that hair colour for years.

I just coloured my hair and guess what? It didn't turn out Anette Olzon red.
So it's safe to say I'm pissed. My hair is about 5 different colours.
Mostly brown(dark and some light)with some Copperish/blonde hi-lights.
Well, the brown turned like a burgundy/dark dark reddish brown.
And the blondish copper turned a little bit of a brighter shade of red then
what I wanted all of my hair to be.
So...I'm a little ticked and disappointed.
But this week-end I will by trying it again;=)
I am serious, I want my hair the colour Anette had her's in 2008.
I have had it that colour before, and I loved it.
So, now I want it back it that colour.

Other than that nothing is new really. I'm glad to be back from Texas.
I bought three more Nightwish Cd's while I was there-
"Century Child"(which is Tarja Turunen), "Once"(Tarja), and
"Made in Hong Kong"(which is Anette Olzon).
Now I will say this again, Anette is AMAZING live.
"Made in Hong Kong" is a live recording CD, along with a DVD documentary
and music videos. And the live recordings they used are really good.
Then my dad got me "Wishmaster"(which is Tarja).
Now I'll need is their first two Cd's "Angels Fall First" and "Oceanborn"(both Tarja).

I am really excited that I read that Nightwish will start recording
the new album in spring of 2010, and hopefully be released in the fall of that year.
Now I read Tuomas Holopainen saying that, so hopefully it's accurate;=)
So I really really am anxious for the new album!
I love Anette's voice and with the album Dark Passion Play being a really dark album,
it wasn't really like much of the sounds of the other albums.
But Tuomas said this album will be more like, "The light at the end of the tunnel" feeling.
So hopefully with hearing Anette sing something that
is a little more sounding like the supposed "old Nightwish" people
will give her a break. They just think Nightwish is different because there's a new singer,
when really, it's that the music was heavier and darker.
They just want someone to blame. And you CAN'T blame Anette.
Just like you can't compare her to Tarja Turunen.
They have different styles of singing and approach how to sing a song in a different way.


Okay, I think I'm done complaining about everything.
Wish me luck with my hair dying this week-end!

ThE ARk {raNT}

"Rocking chair without a dreamer
A wooden swing without laughter
Sandbox without toy soldiers
Yuletide without the Flight
Dreambound for life...
Flowers wither, treasures stay hidden
Until I see the first star of fall..."
- Meadows of Heaven by Nightwish


An ark...what do you think about when you hear the word ark?

And I'm not talking about a ship. I mean, do you think about the ark to heaven?
The ark to hell? The ark to this world from another...if there is such a thing.
What does it mean, or rather what is it?
I've written a couple of things about finding myself...so can I think there's an ark there?
The ark from who I was to who I am now? Or who I will become?

And do you think that who you are or will be, depends on nature...or nurture?
Some say if the person was born into a bad family,
where the parents might have been drug addicts or alcoholics that it means
that's how the kid will end up. That's nature...that it's in your DNA
and something unchangeable, undeniable.
Or do you think nurture? That it all depends on how you were raised.
I won't explain that more, seeing as it explains itself.

I know you may be thinking there has got to be a reason why she is thinking about this stuff.



Well...there isn't.



Yes, it was brought to my attention before, but I never really thought about it deeply enough.

Sure, a book got me into the whole idea. Are you happy now??? I told you.
Not that you hadn't already guessed as much.
But I bet some of you were thinking it had to have been Nightwish or Stargate: Atlantis.
But no, actually it wasn't for once.

The Vampire Academy series kinda talks about this and it got me thinking.
Because of how parents turn out, are we going to go against their children?
Because we think it's in their DNA, that they will do something
terrible eventually. But I don't agree. Sure, if the kid had drug addict parents,
then yes he will already have a higher chance of becoming addicted.
But what if you give them love and care?
Do you think they still will become that way? That's it's inevitable?

I think that if you can change it, then change it.
Don't ostracize the kid because his parents were addicts.
That does not mean he will turn out that way. And if he does, I would blame you.
Because the way you treat him,
if you treat him like that's what he will become...pretty soon he'll believe it too...
and that's what he will become.


No, I don't personally have this problem in my life,
and yeah a book opened my eyes to the seriousness of it. But if you pay attention,
a lot of the times people treat kids and view them the way they do the child's parents.
Which is wrong. Because you can't help who your parents are.
As much as some would like to, we don't pick them. Just as much as they don't pick us.
But even through all the hurt we put them through...all the pain...
they still find a way to love us. Yeah, some may not show it. At all.
But it's there, or at least we can put our best into hoping it's there.

Now, you're probably thinking, what the hell does this have to do with an ark?
Well, that's hard to explain but I'll try.


You see, if a child grows up with a certain atmosphere,
say the child was adopted from addicts. But the adoptive parents give them love and care.
Do you think that eventually this child will change?
Or cross this so-called "ark" and become something else because it's in their DNA?
Or do you think it will cross this "ark" from being born to addicts and having the chance of
becoming one, to instead becoming one of the good people in the world?
That's nature vs. nurture. And it all depends on
how you react to people and how you treat them.

Like I said, it really hasn't happened to me personally.
But when I cross this ark, or if I did, I really hope it was for the better.
That I became someone I should become or became someone I should be proud of.
That I didn't become this way because of how you treated me.


I guess this really wasn't a "rant", but more of an enlightenment.

But I'd love to hear your thoughts...your view on nature vs. nurture.