MORE VIDEOS FROM NIGHTWISH'S CONCERT!!!

More video from the last concert for the Dark Passion Play Tour, "Meadows of Heaven".



This is the VERY FIRST TIME Nightwish has ever played this song live!
Yes, Anette sang it in Suomi Safari, but that was a solo gig she did.

Here is "Romanticide"-



Also, "Wish I Had an Angel"-



Another song, "Amaranth"-



Here is "The Siren" which is personally,
my favorite old song that I love Anette singing-



And one more,"The Islander"-

ANOTHER VIDEO FROM NIGHTWISH'S LAST CONCERT!!!

Okay, so I just got back on the computer,
and found another video from Nightwish's last gig at Hartwall Arena-
this is "Walking in the Air". I actually think that for some
stupid reason, this is the first time I've ever heard it, and it's amazing!



Hopefully when I get up tomorrow(because the whole 6 hour time difference between Sweden/Finland and the U.S.)then more people will have
videos and photos, and Anette will be posting in her blog.

Speaking of Anette, this is the first time I can actually see what she's wearing- looks like a floor length(maybe silk)black gown- and I love it!

LAST NIGHTWISH CONCERT FOR DARK PASSION PLAY TOUR!!!

This is the first video from the LAST concert from
Nightwish's Dark Passion Play Tour which lasted three years.
It's at Hartwall Arena in Finland,
and this is a song from Once, "Dark Chest of Wonders".



And I would just like to say, that if the new singer of Nightwish,
Anette Olzon, has put up with all the crap fans gave her for three years now-
this PROVES she DESERVES to be in the band!!!

This is the setlist-

1.Intro (Finlandia w/ Troy Donockley)
2.7 Days to the Wolves
3.Ever Dream
4.Wishmaster
5.Romanticide
6.Amaranth
7.The Siren (ft. violinists)
8.While Your Lips Are Still Red (ft. violinists)
9.The Poet and The Pendulum
10.Nemo
11.Sahara
12.Dark Chest of Wonders
13.The Islander (w/ Troy Donockley)
14.Walking in the Air (Acoustic w/ Troy Donockley)
15.Last of The Wilds (w/ Troy Donockley
16.Meadows of Heaven (w/ Gospel Choir)
Encore:
17.Ghost Love Score
18.Wish I Had An Angel
19.The Heart Asks Pleasure First

I know Apocalyptica also performed, but I'm not sure if they were
before or after Nightwish, or what their setlist was.

Just so you know, Anette was talking about the band
having some surprises during the last gig, on her blog the other day.
Well at least I know what one of the surprises was-
the never before heard song "The Heart Asks Pleasure First "
So let's hope somebody has it recorded!!!

TaO oF RodneY...oR KaTiE {nOt A Rant}

"We seduce the dark with pain and rapture
Like two ships that pass in the night
You and I, a whore and a bashful sailor
Welcome to a sunrise of a dirty mind

All you love is a lie
You one-night butterfly
Hurt me, be the one
Whoever brings the night

The Dark, created to hide the innocent white,
the lust of night Eyes so bright,
seductive lies Crimson masquerade where I merely played my part
Poison dart of desire"
- Whoever Brings the Night by Nightwish

Actually, this was one night, I wish wouldn't end.
So last night I went to X-FEST 2K9. It was the time I've been to it,
and I thought it was awesome! I got up early kinda,
and got there around 10 or 10:15 and the gates opened at 11,
with the first band coming on at 12:05.
So we got in around 11:10, and Halestorm(my favorite band next to Nightwish)
was at the autograph booth and I had to get there!
So my step-dad left me and my friend Cassy at the booth,
with a long line kinda and we waited.
But I knew it would end at 11:25 for Sick Puppies to take a turn for autographs.



Well we moved a bit but then Halestorm left!
I was kinda aggravated, but figured I like Sick Puppies so I'll stay in line for them.
The I heard someone yell my name.
Up further in line was a kid from my school. He asked if I had been in line for Halestorm,
and I told him yes. He goes, "Well, they're standing right there still signing some stuff."
I was like, "REALLY??? Okay let's go!"
Since Cassy and I didn't want to travel back through the line, I jumped the fence.
Some guy asked me if I needed help,
but before I could say anything I had already swung one leg over
and a woman said, "No, I think she may have got it now."
Cassy gave me her stuff, jumped the fence,
and we walked over to Lzzy Hale, the singer of Halestorm,
who has an amazing voice and something I just now noticed- awesome style!



I asked her if she could sign my ticket and she nicely took it and signed it,
and I told her how I loved her hair.
"Well, I haven't washed it in awhile, so thanks!" I thought that was funny.



Then I asked her if she wouldn't mind taking a picture with me,
and she said sure and grabbed my shoulder
and turned us both to the camera(phone) Cassy had.



I got a picture with her and as she signed Cassy's ticket,
she said she liked my shoes and Cassy's jeans.
Which her jeans were awesome- hot pink and teal zebra stripped.

Then a little later the concerts started!

Halestorm-


I must I thought all the bands did really really good!

Line-up:
Halestorm
Sick Puppies
CAVO
RED
HURT
Cage the Elephant
Hollywood
Our Lady Peace
Mudvayne
Alice in Chains

Any more pictures you want to see, they're on my profiles.
Most of it is Halestorm, considering that's the band I really went there for.

One more thing, not X-Fest related,
but Nightwish related- Anette Olzon, will be making a solo album!!!
Not as a career- that's why she has Nightwish- but as a side project.
Yes, I agree that she should be able to do that!
Every other member in the band has another band or project they do besides Nightwish,
just because she's the singer does not mean she can't.
But I am not only now excited for whenever the next Nightwish album gets out,
but now also I can't wait for Anette's album! So good luck to her with that!

THe GAmE {RAnt}

"A kindest heart which always made
Me ashamed of my own.
She walks alone but not without her name.
Eva flies away,
Dreams the world far away.
In this cruel children's game
There's no friend to call her name.
Eva sails away,
Dreams the world far away.
The Good in her will be my sunflower field.
Mocked by man to depths of shame
Little girl with life ahead.
For a memory of one kind word
She would stay among the beasts.
Time for one more daring dream
Before her escape,
Edenbeam, we kill with her own loving heart"
- Eva by Nightwish

The game? The game of life? Of chance? Of what?
I think sometimes believing in faith is like a game. Is there a point in trying?
If you believe your fate is sealed? Why play a game you've already won?
Or lost, depending on how you look at it... I want to believe in free will.
God gave us free will, we aren't slaves.
But if God knows everything we're about to do before we think of doing it,
then is that the same as fate? Bear with me, I haven't read the whole Bible.
But if there's fate is there free will, or choice?

Right now I feel like I am tempting fate, and losing.

And it's something as ridiculous as dying my hair. How come everytime
I time try to dye my hair red, it NEVER works?!?
I actually went to a hair salon this time to get hair dye(which I will never do again,
not to mention how rude everyone was).
It doesn't say on the box how do anything!
I had wing it based on what I've done before.
This is like, hair colour cream, not hair colour dye, so that's a problem.

I am trying to get this colour-



This is a picture of Anette Olzon in 2008.
And I have been trying to get that hair colour for years.

I just coloured my hair and guess what? It didn't turn out Anette Olzon red.
So it's safe to say I'm pissed. My hair is about 5 different colours.
Mostly brown(dark and some light)with some Copperish/blonde hi-lights.
Well, the brown turned like a burgundy/dark dark reddish brown.
And the blondish copper turned a little bit of a brighter shade of red then
what I wanted all of my hair to be.
So...I'm a little ticked and disappointed.
But this week-end I will by trying it again;=)
I am serious, I want my hair the colour Anette had her's in 2008.
I have had it that colour before, and I loved it.
So, now I want it back it that colour.

Other than that nothing is new really. I'm glad to be back from Texas.
I bought three more Nightwish Cd's while I was there-
"Century Child"(which is Tarja Turunen), "Once"(Tarja), and
"Made in Hong Kong"(which is Anette Olzon).
Now I will say this again, Anette is AMAZING live.
"Made in Hong Kong" is a live recording CD, along with a DVD documentary
and music videos. And the live recordings they used are really good.
Then my dad got me "Wishmaster"(which is Tarja).
Now I'll need is their first two Cd's "Angels Fall First" and "Oceanborn"(both Tarja).

I am really excited that I read that Nightwish will start recording
the new album in spring of 2010, and hopefully be released in the fall of that year.
Now I read Tuomas Holopainen saying that, so hopefully it's accurate;=)
So I really really am anxious for the new album!
I love Anette's voice and with the album Dark Passion Play being a really dark album,
it wasn't really like much of the sounds of the other albums.
But Tuomas said this album will be more like, "The light at the end of the tunnel" feeling.
So hopefully with hearing Anette sing something that
is a little more sounding like the supposed "old Nightwish" people
will give her a break. They just think Nightwish is different because there's a new singer,
when really, it's that the music was heavier and darker.
They just want someone to blame. And you CAN'T blame Anette.
Just like you can't compare her to Tarja Turunen.
They have different styles of singing and approach how to sing a song in a different way.


Okay, I think I'm done complaining about everything.
Wish me luck with my hair dying this week-end!

ThE ARk {raNT}

"Rocking chair without a dreamer
A wooden swing without laughter
Sandbox without toy soldiers
Yuletide without the Flight
Dreambound for life...
Flowers wither, treasures stay hidden
Until I see the first star of fall..."
- Meadows of Heaven by Nightwish


An ark...what do you think about when you hear the word ark?

And I'm not talking about a ship. I mean, do you think about the ark to heaven?
The ark to hell? The ark to this world from another...if there is such a thing.
What does it mean, or rather what is it?
I've written a couple of things about finding myself...so can I think there's an ark there?
The ark from who I was to who I am now? Or who I will become?

And do you think that who you are or will be, depends on nature...or nurture?
Some say if the person was born into a bad family,
where the parents might have been drug addicts or alcoholics that it means
that's how the kid will end up. That's nature...that it's in your DNA
and something unchangeable, undeniable.
Or do you think nurture? That it all depends on how you were raised.
I won't explain that more, seeing as it explains itself.

I know you may be thinking there has got to be a reason why she is thinking about this stuff.



Well...there isn't.



Yes, it was brought to my attention before, but I never really thought about it deeply enough.

Sure, a book got me into the whole idea. Are you happy now??? I told you.
Not that you hadn't already guessed as much.
But I bet some of you were thinking it had to have been Nightwish or Stargate: Atlantis.
But no, actually it wasn't for once.

The Vampire Academy series kinda talks about this and it got me thinking.
Because of how parents turn out, are we going to go against their children?
Because we think it's in their DNA, that they will do something
terrible eventually. But I don't agree. Sure, if the kid had drug addict parents,
then yes he will already have a higher chance of becoming addicted.
But what if you give them love and care?
Do you think they still will become that way? That's it's inevitable?

I think that if you can change it, then change it.
Don't ostracize the kid because his parents were addicts.
That does not mean he will turn out that way. And if he does, I would blame you.
Because the way you treat him,
if you treat him like that's what he will become...pretty soon he'll believe it too...
and that's what he will become.


No, I don't personally have this problem in my life,
and yeah a book opened my eyes to the seriousness of it. But if you pay attention,
a lot of the times people treat kids and view them the way they do the child's parents.
Which is wrong. Because you can't help who your parents are.
As much as some would like to, we don't pick them. Just as much as they don't pick us.
But even through all the hurt we put them through...all the pain...
they still find a way to love us. Yeah, some may not show it. At all.
But it's there, or at least we can put our best into hoping it's there.

Now, you're probably thinking, what the hell does this have to do with an ark?
Well, that's hard to explain but I'll try.


You see, if a child grows up with a certain atmosphere,
say the child was adopted from addicts. But the adoptive parents give them love and care.
Do you think that eventually this child will change?
Or cross this so-called "ark" and become something else because it's in their DNA?
Or do you think it will cross this "ark" from being born to addicts and having the chance of
becoming one, to instead becoming one of the good people in the world?
That's nature vs. nurture. And it all depends on
how you react to people and how you treat them.

Like I said, it really hasn't happened to me personally.
But when I cross this ark, or if I did, I really hope it was for the better.
That I became someone I should become or became someone I should be proud of.
That I didn't become this way because of how you treated me.


I guess this really wasn't a "rant", but more of an enlightenment.

But I'd love to hear your thoughts...your view on nature vs. nurture.

SunDAy {RaNt}

"The dreamer and the wine Poet without a rhyme
A widowed writer, torn apart by chains of Hell
One last perfect verse Is still the same old song
Oh Christ, how I hate what I have become

Take me home

Getaway, runaway, fly away
Lead me astray, to dreamer’s hideaway
I cannot cry ’cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world
Forgive me, I have but two faces
One for the world, One for God
Save me I cannot cry ’cause the shoulder cries more
I cannot die, I, a whore for the cold world

My home was there and then
Those meadows of heaven
Adventure-filled days One with every smiling face
Please, no more words
Thoughts from a severed head
No more praise
Tell me once my heart goes right"
- The Poet and the Pendulum by Nightwish



First off, let me say Happy Birthday to Anette Olzon.
The lead singer of the Finnish band, Nightwish(she's Swedish just to clear that,
because someone ALWAYS says to me,
she doesn't look Finnish, well to hell with you because she's not).




























Next, I want to explain my blog titles-since no one seems to get them.
The title is always the name of an episode Torri Higginson was
in of Stargate: Atlantis,
starting from her last episode and eventually I'll get to the first.
Why didn't I go beginning to end? No idea,
but usually the title seems to go with what I'm feeling or blogging about.
Which today's works because it's Sunday.
And I knew I wanted to do one today because it's Anette's birthday,
and she's a part of one of the big things I'll be writing about today.
But yes, Sunday is an episode name of Stargate: Atlantis.
It's season 3 and Carson dies. Sorry if I spoiled that for anyone,
but don't feel bad he comes back...Torri didn't after she was killed off...stupid.

Anyway, so I haven't blogged in awhile, a little over a month to be exact.
And in a month, a lot of things happen.
BIG THINGS. Two to be exact. Both occurring on what would have been the
happiest day of my life: May 6, 2009.



On May 6th I had it planned to be going with a couple of my two best friends,
Erin and Alex, to go see mine and Alex's ALL TIME FAVORITE band- Nightwish.
This was a HUGE deal. Nightwish is like I said,
a Finnish symphonic metal band. If you don't get what that means,
it means that they don't come to the U.S. that often.
They apparently never center much of their tour to coming to America.
Then with getting a new singer, and with that comes a little bit of a different style of music,
it was quoted that they were going to focus a lot more of
their 3 year long Dark Passion Play Tour, on the U.S.
They did, they came to at least 5 states in 2007, 2008, and then now 2009.
One such state in 2009 was to be Kentucky.

They were coming to Louisville, Kentucky to play at Club Oasis.
They were that close to Ohio, and me and Alex saw
the best and once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
For 5 months, we planned and asked for ways to make it happen.
Not until 4 days before the concert did someone volunteer to take us
that Wednesday- Erin's mum who would be getting out of the hospital that day
from delivering her second child.
Yeah, probably not a good idea, but I think I can safely say we were desperate.

So, back to May 6th, we were totally pumped,
I think I was pretty crazy at school- I know Alex and I both were yelling,
"PRAISE NIGHTWISH!!!"
in the school hallways...we also did that at
the mall three days before...good times.
So I get home after school, 2:50, Erin is supposed to be coming
with her mum around 3:00. It's almost a 3 hour drive, and we wanted to get there early.
The doors opened at 7:00, and with the concert starting at 8:00.
Anyway, I got home and my step-dad was at the table and announced
that my great grandma Claire, a two year sufferer of cancer, had passed that morning...

So safe to say that after that, I really needed this concert...well it's also
safe to say that I was pissed that Erin didn't get to my house until after 5:00...WTH?!?
An almost three hour drive and plus getting
Alex who lives 45 minutes away. Yeah, crap were we gonna be late.
We may miss the opening band, no big deal,
but if we missed Nightwish I cannot tell you what I would have done.

So, speeding down the highway, I think we got there around 8:30 and man
were me and Alex psyched.
NIGHTWISH HADN'T PLAYED YET!!!
Hell, the opening band hadn't even gone on yet; not that it was so great,
some band called Volbeat, and I'm totally never becoming a fan,
it's like bad sreamo 80's wanna-be.
So we link hands, with Alex leading and me in the middle,
and head into the crowd in front of the stage...somehow we managed to lose Erin...
I think she didn't want to pass the guy who as we passed kept on
muttering, "Naw man, there ain't no room up there" in his annoying hick voice.
Where she went, I can honestly say I don't know,
because we were sure as hell not moving.

At around 9:30 Volbeat stopped and the crew started to set-up Nightwish.
Then Alex got a call from Erin on her cell, from her mum's car,
that she went back to might I add(probably right when we got separated I'm thinking)and
you wouldn't believe what she said...that we were leaving at 10:30.
NIGHTWISH CAME ON AT 10:00!!!
Counting opening conversation with the crowd,
we would have only heard two songs- 7 Days to the Wolves and Dead to the World.
But as the clock came time to go, Amaranth came on.
That was at the time my favorite Nightwish
song(considering I hadn't heard very much off their new CD yet),
and there was not a chance in hell I was missing it.

But yes, after it was over we left...3 songs I heard...out of 10 plus 2 encores...
*Setlist for Concert*
7 Days to the Wolves
Dead to the World
Amaranth
Romanticide
The Islander
The Poet And The Pendulum
Nemo
Sahara
While Your Lips Are Still Red
Dark Chest Of Wonders
Encore:
Creek Mary's Blood (w/ special guest John Two Hawks)
Wish I Had An Angel

I think what pissed me off the most was that played what are now some of my favorite songs
and the fact that I found out that there was a Meet and Greet before the concert...
and if we hadn't been running late Alex would have met Tuomas(writer/keys),
her role model for his amazing lyrics...and
I would have meet Anette Olzon.
You have no idea how much I hate this...that woman's voice is amazing
and her singing is like story telling and she has such a god-sent gifted voice...
and I missed that...and I hate that I missed it.

Neither me nor Alex went to school the next day...never got
a clear answer on why we had to leave- I was told different then my mum,
who was told that it was because it was the drinking.
IT WAS AT CLUB OASIS! What do you think they're serving?!?
Not like we 16 year old's could pass for 21 with the big black permanent "X"s on our arms
and no I.D.'s. Anyway why drink?!?
So I could forget what should have been the most amazing day of my life???
Didn't seem like a good idea then, but by now, with thinking about it everyday,
listening to the music over and over, it looks like a good idea now...

So the two big things have moved to three-
#1- My grandma died...enough said...
#2- I missed the best band in the world
#3- I missed meeting the person who has the
most inspiring voice
I've heard, that has been
a role model
for me and my continuation of music in my future...



Here's some video clips of two of the songs we heard-

7 DAYS TO THE WOLVES

DEAD TO THE WORLD

Then I recorded all of the other song-

Amaranth


*Warning-it was my other friend's camera,
and during 7 Days to the Wolves, I was just learning how to use it.


I have tons of photos, just let me know
if you guys want to see them, they're also in my MySpace photo album.

SuMERSiON {Rant}

Who the hell are you to tell me
What to do, why to do, why bother?
Leech in a mask of virtue
Such waste, to ever think of you again.
- "Master Passion Greed"

Kind of I'm doing...submerging my feelings.
Hiding them inside me. Because how other people feel, I keep how I feel
locked inside and no one truly knows how I really feel about things.
I may feel certain ways about certain people.
But because of my not wanting hurt my friends. I did nothing.
And I suffered for it. But now, my opportunity is here...but should I go with my submerged???
Or keep them under submersion-hidden inside me???



Anyway, more drama at school. This is the second time
in two days out of the past 10 years of my schooling life, that I have been called
down to the guidance office.
So it's safe to say I'm not very happy about it.

Number One- DO NOT call me the most evilest bitchiest person in the whole world,
when you have NO room to talk. That's your first problem.

Number Two- ALL you teachers, DO NOT get into a student discussion,
and say you don't want drama, when you don't know the whole story.
You cannot yell at kids just for the hell of it. I didn't do anything!
Get the whole story, before you start yelling at the wrong people.
I'M NOT the one who's cussing somebody out on Microsoft Word in big black bold letters,
and hiding it everytime you come around by the way,
because I'm too SCARED to say it to their face.

Which brings me to...

Number Three- STOP telling everyone everything and saying crap about me!
Do you have a problem??? Then say it to me!


Anyway, not much else to say...school sucks(clearly),
I miss my old friends, and I have nothing to do!

But I am currently liking the acting of one, Claudia Black.
Click to watch this pretty amazing video on YouTube
This is a video about her character on Stargate: SG-1, Vala Mal Doran.

Don't get me wrong! I still love the acting of Torri Higginson.
Watch this other amazing video on YouTube
It's of her character on Stargate: Atlantis, Dr. Elizabeth Weir.

But watch those videos, and that's about it,
hopefully my problem at school will be solved this week...I can't handle
this crap right now, that, and frankly I just don't want to.

VENgeAnCE {rANT}

They used to love having so much to lose
Blink your eyes just once and see everything in ruins
Did you ever hear what I told you?
Did you ever read what I wrote you?
Did you ever listen to what we played?
Did you ever let in what the world said?
Did we get this far just to feel your hate?
Did we play to become only pawns in the game?
How blind can you be, don't you see?
You chose the long road, but we'll be waiting
Someday I’ll learn to love these scars
Still fresh from the red-hot blade of your words
- "Bye Bye Beautiful"


So, you'd think, after being told multiple times,
we don't want anything to do with you,
said person, would I don't know...LEAVE YOU ALONE!?!?!
Some people, have way too much crap going on in
their personal and home lives to deal with your crap too.

So said person from last blog, just couldn't stop.
I get to school, and so far so good. Then I arrive in 4th period.
She dumped him, and blamed it on me and Twin! WTF???
She told him, that WE didn't like him.Umm, excuse me??? Are you serious?!?
We do like him, so where the hell did that come from???
Then she had the nerve to give us a note! Saying she was suicidal,
and that she dumped him. Which I later found out sh dumped him because she hoped
it would make us feel better about her. Umm, wrong again!
Then 5th period she left...okay, that was random, but whatever.
Then in the note, we responded with some, not so kind words, but at least there was no cussing.
Anyway, well guess what she did with that note???
Turned it in!!! What the hell?!?!? Anyway, we got called down and the
whole thing just pisses me off...anyway.
I can't say I don't want to punch something right now, or get revenge,
but I'm definitely considering it. So yes, I am full of vengeance right now.

I'm letting it go. I'm done with you and your crap, don't talk to me for awhile,
hell, don't talk to me forever, and we'll all end up happier.

FiRSt StriKe {ranT}

After all this has passed, I still will remain.
After I've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain.
Though it won't be today,
someday I'll hope again. And there'll be beauty from pain.
You will bring beauty from my pain.
- "Beauty from Pain"


Okay, well maybe it's not the first strike, or the second, or the third.
Honestly, I couldn't tell you how many times me and Twin have given you another chance. Where the hell do you get off telling me how
I effing feel about people and my problems???

When Twin invited her and me over tonite, Twin and I intended
to make the best out of this. If you randomly say, "Oh, I'm a Bitch." what do you expect
the answer to be??? Yes, you are a bitch. I sure as hell won't lie to you.
Because so am I, so is Twin, so is everyone at times,
and real people with feelings can admit that.
Then, you friggin have the damn nerve to tell ME, that I don't want you here. WTF???
Take a pill of the chill variety and get over it. If I didn't want you there,
I wouldn't have come myself! And, my name is Katie by the way.
You didn't even have the friggin guts to say my name when you sat there
and said, "Well, SHE doesn't want me here".
Ummm, okay, you're cool, but I'm pretty sure that on my birth certificate,
it does not have my name as being SHE. And like I said, I didn't say a damn word about
you not being there. I can be MATURE and hold my tounge.
Some people, like Twin for example, have a had to deal with the death of someone.
I, for example, have already had enough people who I was close to, also walk out on me.
Actually, I recall saying that exact thing tonite, right in front of you.
That I am effing tired of people giving up on me, and walking out of my life.

Then, OMG, she had the nerve to sit there and ignore us as we talked to her. WTF???
How do you expect to solve anything if you won't freaking talk!?!?!
Then, you wouldn't believe what she did next. She called her parents and left.
They came and got her. She went inside, got her stuff, then sat in the middle of the driveway.
I went over to talk to her, and she ignored me...AGAIN!
She said that when she's mad she doesn't talk.
Well FYI, some of us, get a little bit more then freaking ticked when you ignore us!
Then you leave, and call back with the nerve to say,
"I did it because it's what's best for all of us." What a cop out!

But whatever. I gave you a chance. Twin, gave you a chance. You're done.
I understand that when you get a boyfriend,
sometimes you ditch you're friends. But EVERYONE else, gets an effing clue,
and knows that the right choice is to come back because friends are important.
Even after the relationship with your boyfriend is gone, you're friends are STILL here.
But NOT for you. Your FIRST STRIKE was up months ago, and you kept coming back.
And stupidly, we kept forgiving you...
and now, seeing what it's doing to Twin, and to me...I regret it.
You had your first strike, you had your second, and this...this was your third.

Now, you are DONE.

ADriFt {RANt}

"I thought cause they were tomatoes they were a symbolic gesture of love and appreciation. The love apple. Now I understand perhaps it was encouragement to step off quickly and head to the bar to meet my pa for that shot of scotch, as I was just depressing my audience. Okay I will cancel my next open mic night at yuk yuks and quit my job at the suicide hotline,as clearly I won't be helping those kids." -Torri Higginson




Okay, so I agree with my Twin Rae(who is the Erin to my Shaunee),
that I really can't say I know who I am anymore.
I think the real me, who's supposed to be in this world, the real world...is adrift.
I think that I don't know her anymore.
A lot of things happen to me, and I promise myself I won't let it change me...
but is it anyway??? Am I adrift??? Being not the person I want to be,
but the person everyone's making me out to be???
So...I don't know. I am adrift, or so I believe is the real me, and I hope, that I'll find her...

So, Yellow Springs, all day, with my Twin yesterday.
Never been, but totally fun, nothing like it, loved it absolutely.
Twin's uncle, who is a fire spinner, said he would teach me
and Twin how to do it. "Dangerous and Moving" flames...fun!

So with being in Yellow Springs..me and Twin have
officially decided to Go Green. And along the way, make a huge statement about it.
And I am talking HUGE, BIG, EXTRAORDINARY.
Might be hard, and the punishment will be big...but I think it'll be worth it.
So chaos, maybe confusion because no one will know whose been doing it, but fun.
And good for the environment.Whether you like what we do, we will make ourselves heard.
Whether or not you can handle what you hear and act on it, is entirely up to you.
Like I said before, do you plan on breathing??? Then quit killing the effing trees!
I believe in Global Warming, all that jazz, it's happening.

Tomorrow, school, math with a teacher who has extremely ticked me off...yeah, fun.

Blog From School

Don't shut up, speak up, for Gay Rights.

So I was in Computer Lit, when I started this.
I am now in English class, and I just have to say I'm rather mad
about the whole Day of Silence thing today.
Day at school, day of silence. Don't do it.
If a tree falls in the forest no one hears it.
If you're silent, no one hears you.
So how is doing this speaking up for gay people???
I'd rather run through the halls, at the top of my lungs, screaming,
"GAY RIGHTS! WE NEED GAY RIGHTS!".
Just sitting there, not making a sound, doesn't change gay rights.
But I do believe protesting does,
but that does not include not talking.
If someone asks you whats wrong, you can't answer because you're not talking.
If you're screaming down the hall, people will know.
See??? It's just easier for everyone.

My other thing, is why do we use so much paper???
I tell them, "Stop using paper and to recycle, you're killing trees!".
What do they say? "Well the tree's already dead,
I'm just using paper that's already made."
Umm, NO. Supply and Demand people! The more effing paper you use,
the more friggin trees they will cut down!
Is it really that hard to understand???
And everyone's always like, "Oh well, they're just trees."
Umm, excuse me??? Do you plan on breathing???
You NEED trees to breathe!
Fine, then when you cut down all the trees, and we have no oxygen,
then I'll say I told you so.

And why, pray tell, does this freaking school
NOT have recycling bins???
My old school did, this one...NO.
Which is totally idiodic. And only makes us "tree-huggers" more mad.

Another thing, why can't we eat luch outside?
My old school, practically EVERYONE ate outside.
Here??? No, they think we'll run away or something.
And if they do think that,
then even they finally understand how much everyone hates it here.

Then, I stay after school to take a test in Geometry,
and my teacher has the nerve to tell me I'm not trying.
Umm, are you my brain???
I KNOW when I'm trying, and I definitely am!
Just because it took me a little less then 15 minutes,
does not mean I don't try.
That makes me SO mad.
Then, watch, I won't try on Monday, and she'll give me a detention.
Oooo, I have to stay after school, with no homework
to do and read a book of my choice the whole time! That'll be torture.
Because if I did get a detention,
I would just read the whole time...yeah, that will be a bad punishment,
getting the chance to finish the book I'm reading.

Week-end plans? Who knows, either going to the movies with Erin...
which I'll probably get blown off.
Or what I'm hoping, go to Yellow Springs with my amazing Twin!

Anyway, running off - talk later!

LiFELinE {raNt}

A nightingale in a golden cage

That's me locked inside reality's maze

Come someone, make my heavy heart light.

Come undone, bring me back to life

A nightingale in a golden cage

That's me locked inside reality's maze.

Come someone, make my heavy heart light.

It all starts with a lullaby

- Escapist by Nightwish


So, right now I am totally bored...I am excited though!
I final finished the season of Stargate: Atlantis!
The only I've seen all the way through is season two,
because it was the first one I got.
I've said it once, so I'm saying it again, bring back Torri Higginson
and have her play Dr. Elizabeth Weir.
I am glad, of course that even though they have canceled the show,
that they're making a movie.
So it will be the perfect time to make up some story that would have
been to long to be an episode, to use as an excuse for her return!
LoL, but seriously, please! PLEASE!!!

Anyway-I am bored otherwise.
I just job shadowed one of my teachers at my old school.
Which I loved, but made me remember how much I miss it.
Then I come back to school on Wednesday,
and remember how much I HATE it at my new school.
Yeah, talk about depressing...

I have recently fell in love with the song called Post Blue by Placebo.
I saw a Stargate: Atlantis video on YouTube for it.
Click here to WATCH, PLEASE!!!It's AMAZING!!!
Read the description to understand it, it's Sparky really, not Stargate: Atlantis I guess.
*If you don't know, Sparky(or Shweir) is what we shippers call the
relationship between
Dr. Elizabeth Weir and Lieutenant Colonel John Sheppard(Joe Flanigan).

But watch the video, watch the show, and I'll talk later!

CRiticAL MasS {RAnT}

The rumors flew but nobody know how much she blamed herself

For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath

She finally drank her pain away a little at a time

But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
- "Whiskey Lullaby"


So I'm reading this new series (thanks Rae Wayne,LoL!).
It's called the House of Night series. And I'm totally ticked!!!

And yes thank Rae Wayne for that too.
Cause she totally told me, that one of the characters
who is the High Priestess (like the principal of the school)
-who by the way, if they mad a movie about it
Torri Higginson could totally rock at playing- is evil.
Ha-take that if you wanted to read it, I just ruined it!
Ha, Karma sucks man! HaHa, just kidding, but seriously she's evil.
Some people said they could tell in the first book.
I couldn't until the second-which happens to be where you find out.
*Heyy she ruined it for me, Karma says I do the same for you! LoL

So it's a vampire series, and I kinda sorta maybe might
like it better then Twilight.
It's a lot darker and edgier. Like a Harry Potter book.
But it's really good.
And Twilight and Harry Potter fans would love it.
But if people let it slip to you that one
of your favorite characters is evil *cough Wayne!*
then it pretty much ruins your outlook on a lot.

Anyway, read the books. It's taken me a day to read each of them.
Marked, Betrayed, Chosen,
and I'm done with Untamed,
and Hunted came out in March, which I finished and loved.

No MaN'S LanD {rANt}

If I'm different, why would you laugh? I'm glad I am.
I could be an ignorant person,
who doesn't care...but then I'd be just. like. you.
I think my individuality is what makes me different.
And if I'm the only one who dares to be,
then I'm alone in No Man's Land.


If you don't want to be my friend, no use in pretending.
Trust me, I'll be there for you
when you realize I'm the only one who was ever real.

Don't lie to me, I wont talk to you again.

Try not to look in my eyes,
it makes me feel too vulnerable.

Quit wearing black clothes,
they don't go with your personality.

Put your I-Pod away, it's rude to have it on around others.

Don't ask me a stupid question,
I won't answer.

Don't assume I like it here, because I never will.

Don't try and peer pressure me,
drugs are for the weak minded.
I can't entertain you, unless you like Stargate:Atlantis.

Never ask me out, if you only are going to hurt me.

Don't ever talk to me,
unless you want to be a real friend.

I'm being straight forward with you here,
so do the same for me.


I want real friends
The ones you can't replace,
because they're special
The ones who will be there for me,
without my asking
The ones who know when somethings wrong,
when I may try to hide it
I want real friends

Be aLL My SinS ReMEMbeR'D {RaNT}

So totally bored.Listening to some 80's tunage,
like INXS and ABBA, and some modern Finish music, like Nightwish and
Apocalyptica(no not with the dude from green day,
this is an actual band they just have random people sing with them every so often.
TRUST ME THEY HAVE WAY BETTER SONGS THEN THE ONE WITH HIM SINGING IN!

Thinking of watching some Atlantis or X-Files,
probably both knowing my Joe Flanigan obsession...
just need to find the one with his shirt off,LoL.

Don't get me wrong, I've been cleaning today.
Not just laying around eating Sour Patch Kids with my cat and watching
What Happens in Vegas. I actually did clean my closet.
It was needed, trust me, and I did some laundry.

So I have been productive today.
Plus I'm trying to write about 7 stories that have
been in my head 24/7 for the better part of these past 2 weeks.

Bored, talk to me! So I don't keep posting things talking to myself!

THis MoRTaL CoiL {RanT}

IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR THIS, DO NOT,
REPEATING DO NOT READ IT!IF YOU DO, ANYTHING YOU READ IS YOU'RE OWN FAULT, SO DON'T YOU DARE THINK ABOUT MESSAGING ME AND GOING OFF.I DIDN'T USE NAMES, SO YEAH IF YOU READ THIS DON'T GO GETTING ALL DEFENSIVE, BECAUSE UNLESS YOU TOLD SOMEONE, THEY WON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE.






---So this weekend kinda sucked. I was fine on Saturday.
With the two I was with.Then the birthday party
I've been looking forward to going to,
made me mad.I couldn't wait for it,and get to see everyone,
then after about 10 minutes I couldn't wait to leave,
Only, trouble tended to follow us,and of course, the drama at the house.





WHICH BTW, IF PEOPLE WANT TO START LIES OR RUMORS,
DO IT IN A ROOM IN WHICH THE WALLS DON'T ECHO.
If I had a problem with you, and btw I didn't,
I definitely would have told you.
And if you have no proof of what I did or said,
which like I said, nothing, then you have absolutely no right to go off at me.
And even if I was talking about you, I wouldn't have done it to someone
I know is just gonna open their friggin mouth. I'm not retarded.





---Anyway, then today, omg, today, I was rudely
awoken by talking in the next room over.
Not whispering like you'd think someone would do if
everyone is asleep, no they can't be that nice, they had to talk loudly.
But whatever.I'm done with that drama,
I'd like to think it's done and people are gonna shut up about it now,
but sorry to say, that would be called acting mature,
and it's probably not going to happen.





And if my day couldn't get any worse,
we had to get rid of our new puppy, Keanu Joe.
It wasn't working out because he's too paranoid, and friggin schizophrenic.
He was too scared.And clearly he had been abused by a man,
because he didn't care for my step-dad too much,
and growled at both him and our other puppy.
He was even too paranoid to go outside and use the bathroom.
I freaking cried for 3 hours straight about this. Because the shelter
he was at doesn't take good care of their animals.
He had calluses on his elbows from the concrete floor there.
Which explains why he was so protected over the doggie bed we gave him.
He hadn't been properly fed, because you could
kinda see his ribs and feel them, and you could definitely see his spine.



So please, enough drama for the year,
which isn't very far until the end, so really it shouldn't be that hard to do.